05/02/26

i read a bit of more Fallout Equestria and let me just say that it is waaayyy better to have no knowledge of Equestria than Fallout while reading this.iIhave no clue how Fallout works, or the type of universe it is, except that it's post-apocalyptic so i'm lost. however, I really enjoy the characters. i'm terrible with names tho, so uhhh, don't ask me anything? you'd think that with how many shows i've watched, games i (haven't) played, i'd get better with remembering people's names...

05/03/26

i have been struggling to download eternal legacy on my iPod all day. i think i'm just going to drag and drop the ipa file. veteris man... love ya but sometimes..! well, my iPod only has 16 GB... so maybe i'm in the wrong here. i have a surprising amount of apps though imo. i think apps took less space back when. also i got roller skates on april 30th, and have fallen down (undertale reference!!!!) 3 times. they're real nice, hatsune miku color. i cannot decide if it's more green or blue than miku though. don't care!!!

on that note, i really enjoy my iPod. listening to music with no ads is a real seller. i haven't deleted my spotify account though.. just 'cause it's still precious to me. plus there's one playlist i refuse to move onto my iPod that i'll keep there. i know i've grown away from it 'cause now when i hear a song, the first thing i look for is the MP3. i hate tagging MP3s though, even though i don't have to do it so often. on that note, don't cry over spilt milk is a good song.

05/04/26

06:50

dude i just learned that you can embed lyrics into your MP3s?? and it shows on my iPod too what the hay! guess i have to take tagging my MP3 more seriously. now i have to do it for every song. or not. the thing is that the little button for looping/shuffling hides once you click off the lyrics. but that doesn't really matter 'cause i don't even touch the stuff. i never play with shuffle off, i just skip songs lol. in addition, the cover art of my songs are real nice so who cares... i can always access the slider thing in the lockscreen. i never rewind to a specifc moment though, and the back button's like right there as well as the repeat. plus there's the control center. i think i'm going to put the lyrics in. gulp. i'll put in romanji all the japanese songs i have though. it'll probblably go something like:

1. poser playlist
2. freaky playlist
3. cringe playlist
4. miscellaneous playlist
5. tyler the creator playlist
6. boa playlist
7. mass of the fermenting dregs playlist
8. doomed playlist
9. MARETU playlist
10. evil playlist
11. inabakumori playlist
12. summer playlist
13. NAKISO and x0o0x playlist
14. babymetal playlist
15. calm playlist

this is subject to change, but hopefully not. no lyrics for the singing monsters one. also! i figured out you can change the volume of a song too. i fixed cold island and earth island and i can hear them without turning up my volume!! :3 this means i have to explore iTunes for reals...for teal.

11:00

last year, i used to photosynthesize. which basically just meant i would sit outside in the sun and absorb it. today i did it. it was very, very nice and i wish i had a cigerette. not a real one though, one that like blows bubbles. i'll still call it a smoke break though. bubble break daresay. on another note, i think i've lost my stylus again. sigh.

05/05/26

i got my habit of saying sigh aloud from this girl in middle school. sometimes i wonder what she's up to. i don't enjoy looking back on middle school, but i think i'd like to know how everyone's doing.also, obligatory vewn plug. i loved lifewasters. it was a crazy good short film and i think captures internet culture real well. speaking of... i've never understood the 'wet cat' expression well. like, can i call real people wet cats? wow that sounds weird. i just have seen this guy today and he looks like... so sad. but not in an emotional way; i mean he looks very sullen and i talked to him and he sounds like it lowkey. i decided on the expression "blow-dried wet cat". hopefulyy y'all see the vision. wait this sounds so headcannony aughhhh. i need to get off the internet. but all my stuff is here! 2day i forgot my iPod charger but that's fine 'cause for some reason, every time i turn off my iPod when it's at low charge, it like jumps a tier up.. can happen liek two times max, usually bringing me to half or 3/4 battery, so it seems... it's a bit worrying but i don't really care 'cause it works for me. i wanna eat something like a banana or a peach or a good, crisp apple rn. feeling mad enviromental.

plugging sulky. she's a great ASMR maker! i stick with her bassmr 'cause it's super soothing and her voice is very nice. i don't really watch streamers though. so when i first started listening to her, i felt bad for not watching her streams, until i realized liking and subscribing helps youtubers. or at least it should. anyhow, there's lore about the universe these ASMR vids take place in. i tuned out after pawmazon, ngl, so i might have to go back.

05/06/26

lunch sucked today. every disagreeble day ngl. cloudy, not even warm for real 'cause of the wind-chill, my earbuds gave out in one ear (i had a backup don't worry), and i'm hunrgy. i didn't eat the lunch 'cause i didn't like it. plus i have a test tomorrow. curse upon curse. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. or the day after that. i wish summer would come but my grades suck. i still haven't found my stylus. ughhhh i'm just gonna kill myself. 9/11 and such.

i've also realized that i've been blogging like i'm updating my status on like facebook. but not like facebook rn, but like maybe something from the 2010s. or smth idk i'm a poser. but that doesn't really matter 'cause this is my website and i can do what i like. reminds me i have to add like, a ton of blinkers on my website. how could i forget? also I AM NOT SWITCHING TO LINUX. I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE BLOATWARE (i do) I DON'T CARE ABOUT WINDOWS 11 (my computer updated in its sleep.) SHUT UP REDDIT! SHUT UPPPPP!!!!!!!!

'hey how do i fix this issue on windows?'

'have u thought abt switching to linux? i personally use mint flavor'

I DON'T FREAKING CARE. "erm actually it's really easy to use!" NO IT'S NOT. I AM A CIVILIAN. I USED TO USE A CHROMEBOOK. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

had to put interview with the vampire back on hold 'cause i didn't finish it... sigh sigh. at least i still have the wolf's gift. i'm not watching iwtv until i finsih the first book though. very good book, very interesting so far. i found a book that's all the Vampire Chronicles, excluding her works from 2014 and 2018 I think... it's atleast one thousand pages. very excited, very very. i have sadly dulled in my reading abilities. damn the phone, wish i could get off it. but it's whatever, some reading is better than none.

yo yo yo! i got crazy taxi on my iPod and it's so fun. i played it a bunch, and found out you can play custom songs... def puttign on DGAF by zay dante!!! i can't wait for his album TASTE on may 15th aaa!!!!!!!!!!! i also updated my notion theme... it's fruits now. i've eaten a bunch of fruits, and i think i'm going to plant strawberries myself 'cause none of the ones nabbed from the store are appetizing. sad how quickly they brown.

ok i uploaded 3 songs for crazy taxi and it worked. i think my storage is messed (understandable), so i can't do so much. once i finish eternal legacy, it WILL be going. rest of my gameplay will be satisfied by gameplay videos on youtube, hopefully. i listened to the full soundtrack on youtube and it was sooo good. tangent, i'm not really in tune with my fandoms no more, but a few videos about this song sung by yi xi and kasane teto, can't find it on youtube anymore, but it's called 'cake girl'. there were reaction videos which would make you feel as if you were going to hear an attrocity. admittedly, the VOCALOID community has a problem with suggestive songs and treating them normally... the song's just a fat fetish (?) song. yi xi likes teto fat and feeds her a bunch, which teto doesn't mind. the drawings are less than appealing i guess but i don't think it's something to clutch your pearls over. the song isn't all that good imo lol, but i think people are making a bit bigger than it needs to be.

i never know what the date is anymore, i don't really pay attention to it anymore. i'm horrible with them, but i don't know if this's 'cause i've accepted that or they really escape me. there's this cool thing i found while scrounging an ipa archive. it was called 'jet set radio' and i searched it up, and found a target radio for reals. it's sick!

i always thought emulation was scary... but it's not so bad. similar to most pirating experiences. but people just tend to blab what they did on the internet and it puts the rest of us in jeprody, never mind i tell the rest of my friends.

i tried to think about how much i cared about not blogging for like, a week, and i realized i don't care that much because no-one's pressuring me to do it everyday. today i played spectral souls: resurrection of the ethereal empire. some old 2006 JRPG with controls i could NEVER figure out for the life of me. even if i could play the full game, the only thing i could figure out is the HOLD chain attacks. it took me like 3 battles to realize using items used like stamina (called AP in-game, have no clue what that stands for.) i searched up the game and apparently it was a PSP game, someone on an android reddit (15 years ago) posted about it. i also nabbed this CAPCOM game called Dead Rising. it's a zombie survival game. i got it late last night and was giggling about it 'cause one of them was named carlito or something of the sort. i mean, it was obvious he was supposed to be hispanic and it killed me! in other news, i'm thinking about getting wolf-quest. when i had my amazon fire tablet, i always played those 3D animal sim games where you raise pups and all that. i remember showing people and i'd confer with others about who i should mate. i LOVED wolves and foxes. so when i saw foxcraft at some scholastic fair... i knew i had met some author's magnus opus. well, it felt like that for me. i can still remeber foxcraft, but do not ask me about the spells. wa'akark, slimmering, gerra-sharm, karakking,...uhhh. pleaching. that one's a reverse. man. i messed with it hardd. there was this other book too, i took it from my 3rd grade library. it had something to do with dragons (IT WASN'T WINGS OF FIRE!) and they were made of clay but the person who made it of clay (Liz?) could breathe life into them. her daughter, Lucy (?) was in on it, and then this guy, David, moves in and yeah. it was mad good too. it's somewhere on my shelves. anywho, yeah. i hope to nerd out about something else soon. by the time i've finished this entry, all the .rar parts of wolf-quest should've downloaded. guess i know what i'm doing!

i've been thinking about how i watch things lately. i got a little tweak for my iPod that makes YouTube work (with sign-in!), and although it's a battery-drainer, i think i commit more to a video when i watch it on there. when i watch on my phone (mobile website, 'cause i don't have the app), i tend to scroll and get sidetracked. even when i listen to music, i end up opening ≤7 other tabs. i can't do that on the iPod, and i just save it to my watch later playlist, then i work through it. i had this time in my life in which i would only value watching longer youtube videos, and every time i fell into youtube shorts again, i had to watch like, the same amount of long form video. it did nothing for my attention span in the long run. i think just becoming more mindful about what i watch it the solution, instead fo just staying off of shorts. i have to watch things i'm interested in! i used to be scared of liking videos, and you can imagine my recommended was the worse for that. now i like stuff and actually commit to subscribing. i also use the show less like this and don't reccomend channel very liberally, and i'm all the better for it. it's a habit i picked up from pinterest.

so... summer, huh? i have been waking up pretty early; 9-10 in the morning without an alarm but i also stay up until 1 AM. there's no real reason to do so since school's out. i have so many bad habits i have to kick... i picked up fitness boxing featuring hatsune miku yesterday. i have had this game for like a year with no real commitment but this summer's gonna be different i think. i have been outside even though the sun is out to kill us all. looking at screens too long makes me sleepy now. luckily i have books. i haven't encountered many bugs, but whether that's due to the bug-repellent sunscreen i put on, or the fact that summer isn't in full swing yet, i dunno. i wish i could get a new glasses perscription, i think i need a stronger one now. i'm unsure of what to eat now-a-days. it isn't like my fridge is empty, just that nothing is really jumping out at me. i'm going to have yogurt after i finish working out. i get this wave of embarrassment every time i say that, which is weird 'cause i'm just?? moving?? getting excersie in?? i think it's 'cause i'm not a gym bro, or crazy dedicated. which is fine. everyone is either comepletely entrenched or barely knows about something. i think to me, calling it a work-out is signaling to me a certain level of dedication that i just haven't reached yet. that's alright.

yo, yo, yo! i finally picked up jet set radio back up again, and finished a stage in kogane-cho!! uh, but now posion jam's a bit mad i goofed 'round in their territory so i guess the next time i go there, i won't be exactly welcomed with open arms. i got gram now though, and he's mad good, replaced tab for me :3 i'll most likely NEVER play gum in my runs, low health really squanders it for me.. but high graffiti stats lowkey make me want to reconsider 'cause i use so much and i spend the first part of my time in the map looking for cans and then by the time i start spray painting, they have the whole of rokkaku running after me. let me tell you, these people are ridiculous. i'm spraying in kogane-cho, and there's only one spot left; the one that's in the open on the scrap metal piece. i'm spraying and i knew that they sent choppers after me but i haven't ran into them yet... i hear the sound of the chopper blades above me, and what i think is a darned MISSILE hits me. i obvi take a buncha damage and i skate the heck away! and it's crazy 'cause the way these people go after you, you would've thunk i'm a crimnell or something! i can just imagine one of them coming back to the garage with like a graze from a bullet on their headwear, and the others are like "ohhh the keisatsu huh???" "ye". faha. that type of resolution is admirable. i always find myself inspired every time i play jet set... i go and put on my skates, fall ≥3 times and retire. i got the whole soundtrack on my iPod, and i kinda wanna burn it onto a CD. i've also been playing hi-fi rush for 2 days (include today) and it's sick. wicked even. the rhythm aspect of it is so well-done and a good old ragtag team taking down big corpo is my typa plot. can't wait to finish it!! the ost is so good as well... professor k! another game ost has hit the iPod! my favorite ost from jsr is most likely humming the bassline, let mom sleep, and sneakerman. i also have jsr future tracks on there despite not playing the game yet... just give me a mintue! i don't know of any xbox emulators yet and i'll have to get used to the keybinds... also let me mention; JET SET RADIO FUTURE WAS MADE IN 2002?! ok, ok, you might be like "bro did you think these were recent games? you have jsr on your IPOD!" and uh let me be clear, i didn't think too much of it but this stuff on the xbox 360??? sony dreamcast?? what are any of these things! gosh i'm so out of the loop for consoles. except for the nintendo of course aha. anyhow, birthday cake by cibo matto is sick.